I often think about what would happen if I lost my husband or if we split up. Would I be too old to fall in love again, or would it happen?
A lot of former London escorts like myself feel the same way. We may not have been able to ﬁnd love until later in life, and things are a bit different then.
Working in the London escorts industry is not always easy, you may ﬁnd that ﬁnding love is not that easy. I was really lucky to ﬁnd a wonderful man, but not all other escorts in London have been that lucky. Many London escorts that I was working with have never married and had any kids. It is kind of sad, and just makes me realise how many people misunderstand London escorts and the London escorts business in general.
If, my husband left me know or something happened to him, I think that I am too old to fall in love again, or am I? Now, I have some real baggage with a 12 year old daughter in tow, so what would happened?
Falling in love again
It is not only until you get older that you appreciate that trust is a big part of love. You learn how to trust somebody with your body and soul, and you may not be able to do so again.
I completely married outside my social class. My husband comes a “posh” family where I come from a normal family. We were sort of not wealthy but neither were we poor. Through my husband I have come into quiet a lot of money, and I often wonder if someone would want to be with me just for the amount i earn as London escorts.
I have a lovely home in Central London which is all paid for, and my husband has a really good salary. If, something would happen to him, I would be very lonely and left with a load of cash. Would I trust someone to want me for who I am?
As you get older you also carry some “baggage” with you. Some of it is physical and some is emotional. Now, if I have emotional baggage, the person I meet is likely to have their own baggage. Do I really want to deal with their emotional baggage.
And where would we live? Would we live in his house or my house? I love my house, it is my home and I don’t really want to give it up. My husband lived in London for many years before I moved in, but now if feels like our home. Giving it up is something which I do not want to do under any circumstances.
Emotional things like new families can be difﬁcult as well. It would mean merging my family with his, and I am not so sure I want that. I love caring for my daughter on my own terms, and I don’t think I would want anybody to interfere with that.
It is also about space. In a marriage you give each other certain amount of space. He goes to work in the morning, and I am left to look after the house and other things. In return for that I have quite a lot of “free time” and I do things that I enjoy. It is a great feeling, and my husband loves me to have my own space. Would I want to give that up? No way…
Would I fall in love again? Yes, I suppose I would but it would be completely on my terms, and I don’t think I am too old for love again.